It’s been a long and arduous week here in the P. household, but alas I feel the end is near….. I have been suffering from a gruesome (great adjective huh?) case of mastitis that turned abscess that turned me into a miserable sickly mommy. My boys were troopers though and helped out a ton! I couldn’t have made it with out them.
Today I’m feeling 188% better – Woo Hoo! It’s supposed to be a gorgeous weekend here in sunny Florida, so I’m looking forward to getting outside and feeling alive again.
In other news….. I feel that breastfeeding may be coming to an end with Greyson, of course having a sick booby has not helped in the least, but even before that he was beginning to show signs of weaning. I have such mixed emotions about this. On one hand, it really is good timing. We do want to have another baby relatively soon, so weaning was something I would want to do before then anyway, and he is 15 months with a mouth full of teeth (ouchy!). On the other hand, it breaks my heart to think of not nursing him. Breastfeeding has given us this bond that is so unbelievably special; words can not even begin to describe the distinctively unique emotions I feel when we nurse. It’s incredible and I just don’t want to loose that. I feel as if it’s just one more hard fact that my baby is no longer a baby. One more step in the “I don’t need my mommy” world. It breaks my heart…..
In motherhood I find so often that the same things that give me such pride, break my heart. It’s the most extraordinary thing ever.
Lovies,
Heather
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