This morning I woke up, it was late, we had slept in... It was Monday. No school today... No school tomorrow either or the rest of this week... You are school-less right now, and it's been sucky to say the least.
Next week, October 1st you will start at a new school. Moving you 6 weeks into the school year, not our idea of fun, but for the rest of this month you are with out school and we spent last week being super sad about it and I refuse to be sad any longer, so this week, this vacation we have been gifted, we're going to live it up!! We're going to go to Disney and the beach and have a photo day, we'll shop and eat at our favorite restaurants and maybe try some place new, we'll go see a movie and have ice cream for lunch, we'll cram as much fun into this week as possible and next week we'll boldly walk hand in hand into your new school and you will take it by storm. There is no doubt you will thrive and be loved and make friends and find your way, because you are you, and you are amazing.
and then Mommy will drive away and the sadness will settle back in. I loved your old school, I loved the people, maybe the people too much. I'm disappointed, truly and totally disappointed to the very depths of my soul... It's been a struggle un-like any other, making the decision to move you, and ultimately Mommy and Daddy had to put all personal feelings aside and do what we truly felt was best for you, and our decision was validated in the actions and attitudes that followed, which is where the true disappointment set in... We looked to you often during this week Greyson, reminding ourselves so often that no matter what snarky comment or "not nice" thing we longed to say, no matter how badly we wanted to get the last word in, point fingers or call people out, we tried very hard to take the high road, to bite our tongues and to move forward as kindly as possible. We looked to you and thought to ourselves what would we want Greyson to do, to see, to feel, what would Greyson do right this minute, and then it was easy, because you are simply good, you really are such an amazing little person, you are kind and honest and good through and through. It's easy to follow your lead even though you are just six (so soon to be seven). Your courage and strength are teaching us so much right now, letting us view the entire situation from a different angle. Changing schools is not a crime, nor is it a sin, and to be spoke negatively or wished anything but success and happiness is not even worth our time or thoughts.
I've learned that I will gladly be spoke negatively about, made to feel like an outsider, and treated poorly by people I once called friends, if it means the best for you. There are many who could learn a lesson in honesty, integrity and kindness from you my dear boy. I am so proud to be your mother and I have no doubt that your new school will be so proud to have you as a member of their family. I've also learned a thing or two about true friends, true friends who get stuck in the messy ugly middle, and it breaks my heart to know that I had some part in putting them there. True friends who I knew had my back, who felt my pain, who cried with me and for me for all the right reasons, who while they were disappointed in our decision to move you, tried very hard to understand, to accept and to support, they were simply just a real friend. So in those darkest moments of sadness and disappointment, in the moments where I feel like we've lost so much more than just the place you went to school, I cling to the thoughts of my true friend, who I surely hope I can be as sweet and kind as one day, because the last couple of years she has always proved to be one of the kindest, truest, most sincere people I've ever known... I love you SS!!
Onward and upward little man - let's have a ridiculous good time this week!!
xo's
P.S. - I'm closing comments, because.... yeah, just because.
