Reminding me that I will indeed smile again…

Not letting my grief get in the way of my being a mom has not been the easiest of tasks lately. Hugging him a little tighter, reading the longer story, rocking extra long and playing more has surely been the key to softening the pain in my heart. I love this boy so much, I can not put into words how thankful I am to have him, to lift my spirits, to bring me joy, to light my life.

( so serious...)
(two sticks make everything better)

:) This one makes me laugh...

Tomorrow we will get the pathology report and meet with the funeral home, it's not going to be an easy day. I had a hard time today when I'd made what felt like my 576th call to either the pathology department, hospital or funeral director, I was done. I could no longer bury the emotions and make the "business" calls. Luckily it ended up being the last one. I hope that I can get through tomorrow, using my head and not just my heart, with an ounce of grace and enough tissues to spare me from having to use my sleeves.