Countless times you are told that motherhood will change you forever. You’re told how the love you feel for your child is unimaginable, unfathomable, complete with out pause, and more intense than any before it. You think you understand, and then you hold your child for the first time, and you finally get it. Only you don’t get it, because with every passing day it’s more, so in reality you will never get it. You will never understand the completeness of how motherhood has changed you, you will never know the completeness of how much you love your child, you will never know where it all ends, because it doesn’t….. It seems as if seconds ago I was holding my brand new shiny, sweet smelling baby and I thought it couldn’t get any better. I know that today, almost 16 months later I love him more than I did at that moment, and I know that tomorrow I will love him more than today.
The ways that motherhood has changed me in these 16 short months are countless to list. I think of the little things, like how with one short cry I will willingly drop my finest crystal dish to dash across the room. I know that I can never watch the news or read the paper with out thinking, what if that was my child? I know that I can wake from a dream about my baby and have to get out of bed to check on him. I know that I can lay awake at night listening for the slightest sound of his needing me. I know that my daily decisions are no longer routine, and often rest in the control of a temperamental 1 year old trying to find his own independence. I know that I have no greater joy than in watching him giggle. I know that because of him, I have fallen in love with my husband all over again, for reasons that I never could have imagined. I know that I’m content, and that there is no where else I’d rather be…..
Motherhood will change you forever, each and every day…
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
Random thoughts of a very tired Mama....
Long gone are the days of “stay here baby”, where one could lay their child on a blanket on the floor, return 2 minutes later and be overjoyed if said child had moved even an inch.
Long gone are the days of “we’re going to wear this today”, where one could pick any random outfit out of the closet and clothe her child in less than 5 minutes.
Long gone are the days of “ok, let’s go inside now” where one could simply walk back in the front door carrying a happy bundle of baby, not a screaming, flailing, very upset toddler.
Long gone are the days of “open wide for more bites” where one could simply spoon feed her open mouthed, eagerly anticipating the next bite child.
Long gone are the simple days…… we have found a little known facet of life called “INDEPENDENCE”, and we’re good at it.
How can someone so cute, morph into such a pain the patooty?
How can someone who just threw every last piece of food off of his tray, after you’ve said “NO” 6 billion times, still make you smile with that devilish grin he has? (So much for mommy’s stern face of authority – I’m weak in the shadow of his cuteness!)
How can someone be so clever at not quite 16 months of age that he’s managed to outsmart and outmaneuver both of his parents by 5:30?
How can I fall even more in love with this little one each and every day?
Long gone are the days of “we’re going to wear this today”, where one could pick any random outfit out of the closet and clothe her child in less than 5 minutes.
Long gone are the days of “ok, let’s go inside now” where one could simply walk back in the front door carrying a happy bundle of baby, not a screaming, flailing, very upset toddler.
Long gone are the days of “open wide for more bites” where one could simply spoon feed her open mouthed, eagerly anticipating the next bite child.
Long gone are the simple days…… we have found a little known facet of life called “INDEPENDENCE”, and we’re good at it.
How can someone so cute, morph into such a pain the patooty?
How can someone who just threw every last piece of food off of his tray, after you’ve said “NO” 6 billion times, still make you smile with that devilish grin he has? (So much for mommy’s stern face of authority – I’m weak in the shadow of his cuteness!)
How can someone be so clever at not quite 16 months of age that he’s managed to outsmart and outmaneuver both of his parents by 5:30?
How can I fall even more in love with this little one each and every day?
Friday, January 26, 2007
Copy-Cat
Step right up folks and see the latest act!!!
This small child copies everything his parents do! How can that be you ask? No one knows! But, the fact remains, this small boy is “The amazing Copy-Cat child”!!!!
Yep, you guessed it, Greyson has entered the mimic zone! For a few weeks now he’s slowly started with things like, wanting to brush his hair after mommy brushes it, same with his teeth. Occasionally we would spot him walking around the house with the phone to his ear, or trying to walk in our shoes.
This morning it became full force…. Greyson walked into the bathroom, grabbed a Q-Tip and promptly tried to stick it down his ear! Last week they were just something to pull one at a time out of the box for hours of fun entertainment, this week he’s using them as an adult and giving me a mild heart attack!! Geez Louise, slow down kiddo, what’s next shaving??
This small child copies everything his parents do! How can that be you ask? No one knows! But, the fact remains, this small boy is “The amazing Copy-Cat child”!!!!
Yep, you guessed it, Greyson has entered the mimic zone! For a few weeks now he’s slowly started with things like, wanting to brush his hair after mommy brushes it, same with his teeth. Occasionally we would spot him walking around the house with the phone to his ear, or trying to walk in our shoes.
This morning it became full force…. Greyson walked into the bathroom, grabbed a Q-Tip and promptly tried to stick it down his ear! Last week they were just something to pull one at a time out of the box for hours of fun entertainment, this week he’s using them as an adult and giving me a mild heart attack!! Geez Louise, slow down kiddo, what’s next shaving??
Monday, January 22, 2007
Go Colts!
Not that we are huge fans by any means...
However, Greg is from Indiana and our family there did buy the Colts outfit for Greyson......
Sunday, January 21, 2007
The lucky one...
Tonight after diner we all sat on the floor and played as we do most nights. Greyson runs between his daddy and me with one toy or another, climbs all over us and just generally has a blast. Most nights we turn on the radio and cheer as Greyson shows us his latest dance moves, bopping his head, spinning circles and coming with in mere inches of knocking himself unconscious! For such a normal night in our lives, tonight I was filled with more than normal emotions. I felt this uncontrollable love and incredible pride for my family. “MY” family…. I love saying that, knowing that I have these two amazing boys in my life and that they are, very much, mine. My husband, I often feel at a loss for just how much I love him. His patience, understanding and love have made me who I am. I fear for where I would be with out him. I have loved every minute of watching him adapt to fatherhood, he is the rare man who took to it like a duck to water. He has from the second Greyson entered this world been not just a Dad, but a Father. I love knowing that Greyson will have such a role model to follow, and that he will grow up to be a strong, loving, amazing man like his daddy. And then there is my son. Greyson is the link that makes me whole, my every happiness is found in his grin. I can’t look at him or think of him with out feeling my heart burst with love.
Tonight as I watched ‘my’ boys play, I realized just how lucky I am. Life can get so busy and weekends can be full of so many chores and things to do, and I worry about this or that, and before I know it, I’ve forgotten to tell my boys just how special they are to me. So, to my boys: Thank you for making me whole, thank you for loving me for who I am, and allowing me to love you. Thank you for showing me daily, how to find happiness, how to find love, and how to have fun. I love you both with all my heart and then some.
Tonight as I watched ‘my’ boys play, I realized just how lucky I am. Life can get so busy and weekends can be full of so many chores and things to do, and I worry about this or that, and before I know it, I’ve forgotten to tell my boys just how special they are to me. So, to my boys: Thank you for making me whole, thank you for loving me for who I am, and allowing me to love you. Thank you for showing me daily, how to find happiness, how to find love, and how to have fun. I love you both with all my heart and then some.
Friday, January 19, 2007
2 Feet, 8.5 inches....
Yesterday we took Greyson to his 15 month well baby check-up. These appointments are always fun and terrible at the same time. Fun because we get a current weight and height check, terrible because the little man has to get shots! (ouch!).
At 15 months, Greyson weighs 25lbs, a pound and a half gain in 3 months, and a whopping 32.5 inches! That is 2.5 inches in growth in 3 months!! Yep, he’s going to be a tall one. His big ole’ noggin is almost 20” and completely off the charts, as he is in height and in weight, he’s hanging steady in the 80th percentile. He’s my little giant. He’s also completely and utterly brave, not one tear was shed during the shot. One proud Momma I am.
Today, we went to Tumbles-N-Tunnels, a cute little activity play center in St. Augustine. Greyson had a blast, climbing and going through the tunnels, down the slides and through the blocks. I was amazed at the difference between him and a little boy named Rogan (yeah, Rogan) who was 20 months. It’s hard to fathom that in 5 very short months, Greyson will be doing some of the things Rogan was doing today. It just seems like such a huge difference, yet when I think back to 5 months ago, when Greyson was just 10 months old (which was like yesterday?), I can easily see that yes they do indeed change that fast. It breaks a mommy’s heart…..
At 15 months, Greyson weighs 25lbs, a pound and a half gain in 3 months, and a whopping 32.5 inches! That is 2.5 inches in growth in 3 months!! Yep, he’s going to be a tall one. His big ole’ noggin is almost 20” and completely off the charts, as he is in height and in weight, he’s hanging steady in the 80th percentile. He’s my little giant. He’s also completely and utterly brave, not one tear was shed during the shot. One proud Momma I am.
Today, we went to Tumbles-N-Tunnels, a cute little activity play center in St. Augustine. Greyson had a blast, climbing and going through the tunnels, down the slides and through the blocks. I was amazed at the difference between him and a little boy named Rogan (yeah, Rogan) who was 20 months. It’s hard to fathom that in 5 very short months, Greyson will be doing some of the things Rogan was doing today. It just seems like such a huge difference, yet when I think back to 5 months ago, when Greyson was just 10 months old (which was like yesterday?), I can easily see that yes they do indeed change that fast. It breaks a mommy’s heart…..
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Is there anything else I can get for you Sir?
Greyson has become quite the distinguished eater these days, moving rapidly from finger foods to “I’ll use my child spoon” to “Hand over the adult fork!” to “I need a plate, and full silverware on my tray or I will NOT eat. Thank you”.
He really has mastered the skills of using a fork and spoon quite well, especially the fork! We are very proud, yet a little cautious as at the end of most meals, when his belly is full he tends to like to launch things from the tray – fork included.
At the rate his table skills are progressing I fear by next month I’ll be serving him on the good china in the dining room, decked out in my tux with a white linen towel over one arm (you know, like those fancy pants waiters) and seeing to it that his sippy cup never dips below the half way mark!! Geez Louise!!!
He really has mastered the skills of using a fork and spoon quite well, especially the fork! We are very proud, yet a little cautious as at the end of most meals, when his belly is full he tends to like to launch things from the tray – fork included.
At the rate his table skills are progressing I fear by next month I’ll be serving him on the good china in the dining room, decked out in my tux with a white linen towel over one arm (you know, like those fancy pants waiters) and seeing to it that his sippy cup never dips below the half way mark!! Geez Louise!!!
Friday, January 12, 2007
Feeling better
It’s been a long and arduous week here in the P. household, but alas I feel the end is near….. I have been suffering from a gruesome (great adjective huh?) case of mastitis that turned abscess that turned me into a miserable sickly mommy. My boys were troopers though and helped out a ton! I couldn’t have made it with out them.
Today I’m feeling 188% better – Woo Hoo! It’s supposed to be a gorgeous weekend here in sunny Florida, so I’m looking forward to getting outside and feeling alive again.
In other news….. I feel that breastfeeding may be coming to an end with Greyson, of course having a sick booby has not helped in the least, but even before that he was beginning to show signs of weaning. I have such mixed emotions about this. On one hand, it really is good timing. We do want to have another baby relatively soon, so weaning was something I would want to do before then anyway, and he is 15 months with a mouth full of teeth (ouchy!). On the other hand, it breaks my heart to think of not nursing him. Breastfeeding has given us this bond that is so unbelievably special; words can not even begin to describe the distinctively unique emotions I feel when we nurse. It’s incredible and I just don’t want to loose that. I feel as if it’s just one more hard fact that my baby is no longer a baby. One more step in the “I don’t need my mommy” world. It breaks my heart…..
In motherhood I find so often that the same things that give me such pride, break my heart. It’s the most extraordinary thing ever.
Lovies,
Heather
Today I’m feeling 188% better – Woo Hoo! It’s supposed to be a gorgeous weekend here in sunny Florida, so I’m looking forward to getting outside and feeling alive again.
In other news….. I feel that breastfeeding may be coming to an end with Greyson, of course having a sick booby has not helped in the least, but even before that he was beginning to show signs of weaning. I have such mixed emotions about this. On one hand, it really is good timing. We do want to have another baby relatively soon, so weaning was something I would want to do before then anyway, and he is 15 months with a mouth full of teeth (ouchy!). On the other hand, it breaks my heart to think of not nursing him. Breastfeeding has given us this bond that is so unbelievably special; words can not even begin to describe the distinctively unique emotions I feel when we nurse. It’s incredible and I just don’t want to loose that. I feel as if it’s just one more hard fact that my baby is no longer a baby. One more step in the “I don’t need my mommy” world. It breaks my heart…..
In motherhood I find so often that the same things that give me such pride, break my heart. It’s the most extraordinary thing ever.
Lovies,
Heather
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
A cure for all that ails you....
This afternoon I decided that we needed a little sunshine. After a few days of being trapped in the house due to mommy’s sick booby, I decreed that if I felt well enough to sit inside, I surely felt well enough to sit outside. So bundled up we got (it’s a chilly 66 degrees here today) and out the door we toddled.
Greyson just loves to be outside, his whole little face just lightens as he spies the best blade of grass ever in the whole wide world, the most fascinating leaf, the prettiest bluest sky, and every thing in between. It’s fun to recapture that innocence, that sense of wonder, the amazement of childhood.
It definitely made me feel much better, and tired the little one out enough that he’s currently taking an amazingly long nap! Hurrah for sunshine and a bit chilly weather!!
Oh, and I was able to snap these cute pics…. Enjoy!
Greyson just loves to be outside, his whole little face just lightens as he spies the best blade of grass ever in the whole wide world, the most fascinating leaf, the prettiest bluest sky, and every thing in between. It’s fun to recapture that innocence, that sense of wonder, the amazement of childhood.
It definitely made me feel much better, and tired the little one out enough that he’s currently taking an amazingly long nap! Hurrah for sunshine and a bit chilly weather!!
Oh, and I was able to snap these cute pics…. Enjoy!
Monday, January 8, 2007
Talent talent talent.....
Today Greyson enjoyed his very first finger paint experience.
The child has mad talent!
Enjoy his very 1st one of kind, Crayola Original……
The child has mad talent!
Enjoy his very 1st one of kind, Crayola Original……
Yes, you do see Mommy's handprints too..... Hey, it was fun!!
Sunday, January 7, 2007
Ride em' Cowboy!
Today was photo day for Greyson. As you know, photo day happens often around here, but today was special – today was Cowboy photo day! I often wonder as I search through the 247 pictures on my camera, how badly will Greyson despise me and all the silly pictures I force him to pose for when he’s 15? Will I be the mom who breaks out the 17 photo albums every time a girl comes near that he has a crush on? Will I show off his 4 month old naked bum to every poor soul who steps through our door, his diaper cowboy pictures, his baby in the briefcase, in the coke tin, in the silly hat, etc…? Will he visibly cringe and act too cool, but inside love the oohs and ahh’s received from all around?
I hope so….
Sorry sweetie pie, mommy loves that cute little naked bum…. And as far as these cowboy pictures – CLASSIC!!
Love you!
I hope so….
Sorry sweetie pie, mommy loves that cute little naked bum…. And as far as these cowboy pictures – CLASSIC!!
Love you!
Monday, January 1, 2007
2007??
2007…. I so thought we’d be living like the Jetson’s by now.
Where is my Rosie the robot maid?
Hmmm... maybe we should have named Greyson - Elroy instead?
Where is my Rosie the robot maid?
Hmmm... maybe we should have named Greyson - Elroy instead?
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