Super Hero Sunday!

Funny brunch!

Out to brunch recently Greyson ordered steak medallions and broccoli which he loved! (he is his daddy's son!!).  Later that day he was on the phone and I over heard him saying, "and I had steak Battalions!" 

It's the little things like this, the moments that just make me giggle, the steak battalions of our days that I want to make sure to record more of!! Because let's face it, steak battalions is just funny, and that moment, of giggling in the car and looking at Greg and all the words un-spoken but said so loudly between us as we smiled and laughed and both thought just how fortunate we are... Those are the moments I want to record, to remember, to have for Greyson for always...

Steak battalions for everyone!! :)  

Monday Funny-day...

"Mommy, how old are you?"

"I'm 31"

"Whoa!! ... So when you were little did you have to run away from the meat eating dinosaurs?"

OUCH!!

Just one more!!

Ok, ok, ok... So I know my blog is supposed to be all about Greyson... but I just had to share one more (and let's be honest, you all know I'll probably share a dozen more before it's over...) of this little peanut!! She was just so good to the photographer in me!!! Ooooooh!! Ok... now back to regular scheduled programing...

Tomorrow - we talk about basketball!! The kiddo is playing again, and baby boy has got some serious game!!

but first... Hello Gorgeous!!

Today I got to...

Spend 4 glorious hours, cuddling, bouncing, posing and photographing this little bundle of uber cuteness!! You guys! I got so many ridiculously cute shots!! I am having an absolute blast-a-roni in post processing... Seriously, squeal like a little girl blast!!!

See what I mean?!? How can you not squeal at this!?!?

Babies Babies Everywhere, but not a one for me…

Blah...

Self pity, poor me, ugh…

I’m surrounded by new babies, one of my very dearest and closest friends is pregnant. I am SO happy for all of them, I truly am, and I would be devastated if they tried to protect me by keeping me out of everything they are going through, I want to be there for them, I want to be happy and part of it all, but some days… some days it just hurts.

Today I stood there holding a brand new 2 week old baby (a beautiful baby girl that I get to photograph this weekend – SO excited) while looking across the room at one of best friends and her adorable teeny tiny belly… I was equal parts over the moon thrilled for them, and bottom of the barrel, steam rolled, heart ripped out, sad for me…

I hear so often that I still have time, there are days that I think, maybe I could try again… then the memories of that day come back… the gripping fear… and beyond that the cold hard facts: Greyson is 6 years old, Greg is 44… I don’t still have time, we’re done.

Enter self pity, poor me, and more ugh…

I guess it’s good to know that I can live vicariously through all of the pregnancy’s and new babies around me, that I can readily get my hands on a brand new baby to soak up the goodness, put my hands on a growing belly (whether she likes it or not! Ha!) and while I’m sure that for the rest of my life, those moments and seeing what I so deeply had once longed for, will find me feeling a bit blue, it will also force me to take a moment to remember just how much I do have. I have a son who is magnificent. I have a son who is the light of my life, who is healthy and happy, who is a joy to be around, not only for me, but for all those that meet him. I am the mother of truly one of kindest, sweetest, funniest individuals I have ever met (and I’m not just saying this because I am a little biased – it’s TRUE!!) I also have the pleasure of being surrounded by some of the most amazing women, women who know my story, who know my struggles, but are not afraid to open up to me about their pregnancy’s, their new babies… I would be lost without these women in my life… I’m so fortunate to have them, watching them grow as mother’s having their 2nd, 3rd, 4th babies… it truly is a joy to me, despite the moments of hurt, the joy outweighs the hurt… The love outweighs the sadness…

and this face... this face that makes even the saddest heart smile...

Race Weekend!!

Race weekend – in one word… AWESOME-SAUCE!! (totally one word!)

It was a blur of very little sleep, and by very little I’m talking maybe 45 minutes in a 49 HOUR time span!! But man was it worth it!! Getting to meet and run with Bart Yasso – priceless!! Being surrounded by 6,000 (+) other crazy runners – I can’t even describe the energy!! Going through the Everglades in the middle of the night with nothing but a head lamp and full moon – incredible!! Best race weekend ever, can’t wait to do it again. The best part of it all though – coming home to the arms and kisses of my boys, especially my Greyson… Oh, how I missed him… Even though I really did have an incredible time, and fun beyond fun, there was a part of me missing, that blue-eyed, cheesy grinned, silly, sweet, best hugs ever part… 5 days away was too long for this momma!! The boys on the other hand, missed me, but obviously had a grand old time and managed just fine without me!!

Oh yeah... that's me just taking a picture with BART Y.A.S.S.O.!!!!

Hello Key West... The best finish line, EVER!!

Bye Bye Key West!!!

Headed home from an amazing time at an amazing race, but seriously I CAN NOT WAIT to get home to my boys!!! I have missed them so much!!

Doll Baby...

Like... Literally!! Look at his sweet little porcelain doll face!! Oh how I love this boy!!

Daddy time...

Tomorrow I leave my boys for 5 days.

...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so nervous!! My nerves have nothing to do with the fact I'm going to Miami to a race that is 200 miles to Key West, no my nerves have everything to do with the fact that I'll be with out my boys for 5 days!!! 5 entire nights and days away from my boys!!!!!!!

I can't even. even... even begin to let my mind wrap around the fact. UGH!!!

I know I'll have a blast, I know I have to go, it will be good for me, for them, for all of us but seriously what was I thinking!!

It's not that I don't have full confidence in the fact that Greg will be totally fine taking care of everything, he reminded me last night that he is indeed a rather responsible parent, but, but, but... he doesn't know how Greyson likes his sandwiches made, the right peanut butter to jelly ratio, and how to cut just enough crust off in order to leave enough sandwich and what about notes on his napkins, and the proper way to load his lunchbox, I mean it took me a few weeks to perfect it, and the way he likes his strawberries cut and OH MY GOODNESS, how will they cope with out me!!!!???

and then I realize they'll be fine, I've left detailed notes (and napkins with notes) and Greyson won't starve, and Greg won't starve and they'll manage just fine... but, how will I manage not manging?!?

I'm sure this post makes no logical or even grammatical sense (not that any of that is new...) it's most just my panic ramblings of how do I leave for 5 whole days!!

I'm headed to Miami - and then on to Key West but my heart... my heart is staying in Palm Coast...

I'll be racing my fastest back to these two...

New...

A new year and new goal.

wait for it.....


To be a better blogger! Ha!

I know I know, same old tune... This year I was sad though as I looked through the limited (for me) pictures I took, the lack of blogging, the knowing that so much is lost... sigh... So I'm going to try to get back into the blog mode, to record his moments, his funny, his joy, his struggles, his fears, his achievements and accomplishments - to keep a record of him, so that next year and the years after I can look back, he can look back...

On the first day of 2012, we went to Disney (shock and awe... )

and a grand time was had by all...