Summertime Fun!

The 1st day of summer is still 21 days away, but around here it feels like we’re in full swing summertime fun mode! I have a feeling that if I blink even once summer is going to be gone, we seemingly have something planned for every weekday, weekend, last week, next week and Thursday from now until… well – Fall?? So… if you don’t hear from me for a few days (er… weeks) you’ve been warned, that being said, I’m going to try my best to keep the blog updated with a fun record of everything we're doing. It’s amazing to me now that Greyson is getting older all the activities that open up for us to participate and be involved in!! So much FUN!

First up: Amelia Island Resort Plantation. We’ll be spending the better part of next week there (we leave Tuesday). I’ve heard nothing but great things about it, clean beaches, family friendly, lots and lots to do, so we’re pretty excited. Although, to be honest the only thing I’m planning on doing is lounging (errr… playing with Greyson) by the pool or on the beach the entire time… Hopefully we’ll have better weather than our Disney week.

And, because no post is a complete post without photos of the little man, I’ll offer up this one. We’ve had a real blast with Greyson’s first Garden this year. The watermelons are pretty much taking over, choking out the cucumbers and some other flowers. The corn weevils killed our sweet corn seemingly overnight, but his green beans have done super well and he has some awesome sunflowers!! Here he is with his first batch of green beans!! They were delicious!

Rain, Disney and more RAIN!!

If I had to sum up our Disney trip in one word, it would be super easy – WET!!

After months and months of no rain, desert like, super dry conditions, Mother Nature decided it was time to give Florida a drink and by drink I mean 3 feet of water in 5 days, and I’m so not kidding. Of course that was the week we pick to go to Disney, so with our poncho’s in tow we made the most of it. To be honest it wasn’t that bad, the center of the state got much less rain than our coastal neighborhood did, so we had times each day where the sun was out and we stayed mostly dry. Our first day at Animal Kingdom we learned rather quickly that you don’t leave the poncho’s parked in the stroller while you go in to watch a show; we came out to a down pour and had to sprint to our stroller that was SOAKED!! That was the only time though that we got really wet, the rest of trip we kept our poncho’s with us – lesson learned! Despite the rain and the poncho’s (so not flattering!!) we had a pretty good time, it was nice to get away and relax and spend full days as a family.

This week Greyson started and Aqua Tots class (swimming lessons) and a 6 week Sports Camp. Yesterday was his first Sports Camp day and the focus was T-ball and Greyson loved it! He’s been hitting a ball at home for awhile now both from a stand and pitched. He was showing off his skills yesterday for sure! Also in the land of Greyson, he’s eating us out of house and home! I’ve never seen a 3 year old that can pack it away like this kid, yesterday he ate a full 6 inch sub from subway that was loaded with veggies (lettuce, spinach, green peppers, pickles, olives all on top of the turkey, ham, bacon and cheese!!) and 2 chocolate chip cookies!! That was after a big breakfast of eggs, Canadian bacon and an apple!! I swear he’s either eating, sleeping or running!!

Here are a couple of Disney pictures, we didn’t take too many because of the rain…

Greyson and Daddy on the Safari at Animal Kingdom, Greyson was checking out the animal instead of the camera!!

Greyson and Mommy on the carousal... Greyson's favorite!
Greyson being cheesy!!

Greyson suited up in his rain gear. How he looked most of the trip!

Time

Time heals… Just give yourself some time… In time you’ll feel better…

Time right this moment is not helping, it’s hurting. I can’t help but think, would he be here, would he have come early, would we be scheduled for a c-section this Wednesday like originally planned, would I have opted to wait and attempt a vbac, would I already be home, holding him, nursing him?? I often find my arms feeling so empty, my body so empty – where is my baby they scream, why are we not full!?!? I don’t know how to stop this pain, I don’t believe in time, time doesn’t help, time just takes me farther and farther away from him.

Dear Sweet Baby Boy,
I can’t even begin to tell you how much I miss you. I hate that you were taken from me so early, too early for you to make it on your own, you needed more time, we needed more time, so much more. I can’t help but dream of what could have been, what it would have been like to have you home, to hold you and bathe you and nurse you just like we did with your big brother. I can’t help but dream of what it would have been like to see him hold you and love you and press kisses to your forehead. I wish that I had the answers baby, I wish that I could change the past, that I could make it different, that you could be here. I need you so much, I want you so much. Carrying you in my heart is not enough, I want you in my arms, I want you here. I’m so sorry sweet boy, so so sorry.

Love,
Momma

These boots were made for…. Attitude?

Greyson has been eyeing these boots at Target for months now. I finally broke down and bought them (they were finally on sale!!) and man, does the child love them. They definitely give him some attitude though! These pictures just crack me up! Enjoy!

(Seriously, one of my new favorite pictures ever!!)

We're off to Disney for a few days - be back this weekend with Disney pictures I'm sure!!

{ Love }

Becoming a mother, becoming his mother, was and is the easiest thing I've ever done. There is no reason for my love, it's just there and every day I wake up and there is more of it. I think to myself there is no way I could ever love him more than I do at this very moment, and then I look at him and instantly I do. We spend our days laughing and giggling, sharing secrets and adventures. Together we face the world, the day, the endless errands and jobs to be done. Together we walk hand in hand across streets and parking lots, parks and fields, together we play, we work, we rest. He's my best friend, my sidekick, he's definitely mommy's boy.

I love you Greyson...

He knows what he’s talking about…

The following conversation happened at breakfast the other day.

M.I.L (mother-in-law): Jordan received a couple of scholarships and won the Thespian award! I’m not really sure what the Thespian award means but…

Greyson: It’s what you clean the dust up with!

Everyone: Huh??

Greyson: You clean the dust up with the dustpan, the Dustpan award!!!

Thespian – Dustpan – eh… close enough!!

Animal Kingdom...

Sick of Disney posts yet?

Greyson and I spent the day down at Animal Kingdom on Friday, and as always had a blast. The crowds were pretty light, and it was pretty HOT but not so bad that we couldn't manage. Here are a few of the snap shots I took during the day.

Not really sure what Mickey was trying to accomplish with Greyson's arms like this??

He definitely loves him some Pooh Bear...
another cute shot with Pooh Bear.

and of course Eeyore too!!

His favorite by far though, had to be Tigger!!!

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Oh, and yes there was an outfit change mid-day, apparently at Animal Kingdom the child size cheese pizza is made 10% crust, 10% cheese and 80% SAUCE!! Needless to say, Greyson looked like the lions had attacked our Safari ride by the time he was done, red pizza sauce from head to toe!! I was ever so happy that I had remembered to pack and extra outfit!!

Oh Sunny Day...

Hot Hot weather + Lots of Sun = Slip-N-Slide time!!

Much fun was had, and amazingly enough, no one was injured!! Success!!

As you can see, he spent most of his time, just sitting at the end playing in the spray, which probably accounts for 95% of the reason there were no boo boo's, I seriously forgot how slippery and dangerous these things are!!!

My Beautiful Boy...

Dear Greyson,

Some days your tender heart just amazes me. You are such a gentle and sweet soul and your compassion at the age of 3 is so very strong and true. I hope among all things, that your compassion is something you never loose. That you forever stay, sweet, gentle and kind of heart. Those things will take you far my sweet son. I love you more than I could ever express, you are truly the light in my life.

Love you,
Momma